Been catching up on the Harry Potter movies on ABC Family.  I forgot how much I really enjoyed them.  I was tempted to check out the first couple of books from the library.  I have the last 4 in my collection but not the first 3.  Was also tempted to make a trip to the book store but had to remind myself that bills come first.  So while at the library I found the 3 books in the Golden Compass series.  I enjoyed that movie and don't understand why they didn't continue with the other 2 in the series.  No accounting for taste, I guess.  I have been on a reading binge lately.  I think it is my escape from the kids.  I am really counting down the days until they go back to school.  The oldest has gotten so lazy this summer.  I don't know what to do with him.  He has hit 12years old with a vengeance and is defiant with every breath of his body.  He knows that he is supposed to be practicing his music but it has been like pulling teeth, and I just don't have the energy to fight him anymore.  I am also tired of being poor.  Have been sending out resumes trying to find another job.

I am trying to find a job with at least some steady hours.  I was contemplating getting a job at the bookstore but am afraid that I would spend all of my money there and not for the bills.  I really love my current job, but I can't swing the uncertain hours anymore.  I don't like living paycheck to paycheck, who does?  But it would be nice to be able to budget from week to week on what I am making.  Lately, since September, I never know what my hours will be.  Will it be 4hours this week or 40?  It is too much uncertainty.  I have sent out a couple of resumes and am hoping to hear something this week.  Until then, I keep looking and keep the resume handy.

     I've been having a bad week this week.  I am going to chalk it up to hormones of the monthly variety. Sorry all you guys out there but sometimes it has to be said.  Work has been scares this week too and it doesn't help when I am looking over the bills and what is in the bank trying to make the two get along.  I have decided to look for another job.  This job has been my dream job, it is what I have always wanted to do, unfortunately, there is little work for me at this time.  I have 2 prospects in the medical field I am going to pursue and if they don't work out, there is a bookstore with 2 locations near me that is hiring.

     Hubby says, why get a retail job that may only pay you $8 an hour.  I told him a steady 8bucks an hour is better than $19/hr and I never work.  Besides, Mom and I have been talking about opening our own used bookstore.  In the town where I live, there are no bookshops.  Well, there are 2, one is Wally World with a crappy small selection and the other is on the top floor of a coffee/healthfood/yoga/etc store.  There are a few really good shop possibilities here in town.  I have been doing a lot of research on it and making some decisions about names, layouts and getting a lot of information from people that have been there/done that.  It is not something that is going to happen in the next 6months or year, but I figure if I do my research and take notes, when we are ready we will be really ready.

     I will be going over my resume and making changes once again and send them out to these 2 prospects.  Having my fingers crossed something good comes of these.  I know what I don't want to do and that is going back to the nursing home to work.  It is too depressing for me, there are too many people that don't care about what they are doing and who they are doing it for.  It just upsets me to work there.  I know there are many people working there that do care but they burn out so quickly and leave or just give up and join the masses.  If one of these prospects turn out good then I may be able to keep my "night" job as well, we will see.